I’m participating in several blog challenges and activities this month.
This post is for Blogher’s Writing Lab, #Postaday on WordPress, and BloggingFreedom.org’s 30 Day Challenge.
A little over two years ago, back in November 2013, I made the decision to get back into blogging. I’d had a small fandom blog before, but life happened. I severely injured my arms, and that blog fell by the wayside.
In 2013, I was just getting started with Dragon NaturallySpeaking, and I was pissed off. I was mad about the way the Internet was reacting to cuts to the food stamp program. I was mad about the hypocrisy and blatant abuse I saw in Protestant American church culture. I was mad about the lack of progress in Disability rights since the 90s. So I wrote a bunch of rants. Then I realized that I didn’t have anywhere to post them because they didn’t fit on my fandom blog nor on my old LJ. I knew I needed to start developing a real author platform, but I wasn’t ready to commit to WordPress. So I started rosebficher.com as an experiment and jumped into the blogging community here.
The first half of 2014 was pretty awesome. I made some friends I value, joined some challenges I enjoyed, and made some mistakes that taught me important lessons. The second half of the year was a mess. There was a family crisis, interpersonal conflicts with longterm friends, and my arm injuries were not improving. I tried to keep up my blogging pace (which involved daily posts that ran 2000 + words whether I wanted them to or not) and gave myself laryngitis. I did everything I could to keep my personal life off the blog because I figured nobody wanted to read my problems with my father’s drinking or my brother’s heroin use or how a long-time friend was being a complete bitch to me because her life was a mess, and I was ready to quit our relationship. Conflict with other bloggers made it harder for me to talk about anything real here, because I’m always hoping to work things out and avoid a big drama-fest. So, I crashed and burned without a support system because I didn’t want to “bother” my blog readers, even though my friends are the ones who read my blog the most.
There was a brief upswing at the beginning of 2015, and then the shit hit the fan again. Literally all my plans for the year fell by the wayside. I knew I couldn’t keep doing what I was doing. In April, when I started to get my head together again, I made some serious changes to my priorities. I released a serial fiction series over the summer, and I put a lot of work into evaluating and re-designing my drafting and editing processes. I am much happier on that front, and I feel like I understand what my first drafts are lacking a lot better than I did a year ago.
I have big plans for blogging through my learning process 2016, but shit is hitting the fan again. I’ve decided that I’m not going to keep jumping ship from my blog every time alcohol and drugs rear up in my life. I’m not going to keep my mouth shut when people betray my trust either. For better or worse, I have 3 generations of New York immigrants in my blood (Irish, Italian, and German, if anyone is counting), and I’m done playing nice.
This blog is going to get more personal in the early months of 2016. I’m temporarily rescinding the policy of positivity in favor of a policy of “Rose is going to blog whatever the fuck she wants, and if you don’t like it, there’s the door.”
You’ll also see experimental narrative styles, which I’ll talk about separately.
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